24th Feb 04:40am

yesterday... i know I'm being rude to abg... hm...and I'm sorry... its just i want you to know what im feeling all this while..i don't know what is happening to me now.. i started to take all those things back.. its just,,. Ive lost everyone.. and i just cant pretend and telling ppl that im ok... im not ! im not ok.. im not !! hmm.. i just miss my sayang so much.. till now still no news from abg... just now when i let go everything... he dint replied... i thought so.. yeah.. like i said.. daniel leave me, abang,kak yanie, kak shima, khairul and my friends.. everybody did.. so how about me ? does anyone care about me ? no they dont.. infact im in the hospital no one come except hakim.. came all the way from johor... he's the only one. ! then what?? why do u care about me now ? hah ? why ????? why now ?? dont blame me if ive changed... i have to changed because im hurt... i cant deny that i still love daniel.. but why daniel tak cuba kuat ? tak cuba bangun ? why ??abg tak care ttg mira jugak... abg selalu busy jugak.. sama macam semua org! semua org busy.. tak pernah amik tahu ttg mira so knapa tiba2 nak care ttg mira .. why ??? dont ! just go away... biar kan mira nak jadi apa pon.. sbb apa pon hidup mira mmg dah musnah ! daniel tak de... daniel nyawa mira... daniel tak de now so life mira mmg dh tak ada... so buat apa mira nak jadi baik ? hah ? mira just nak someone pampered kan mira.. dgr apa mira nk ckp.. mira just need a hug from a guy so that mira rasa selamat.. mira nak ada guy yg pegang tgn mira utk mira tahu dia akn pegang mira kalau mira jatuh.. mira nak ada guy yg lap my tears utk mira tahu mira tak perlu ngs... but mira TAK perlu guy yg hnya ckp dia ada ngn mira tapi dia tak! mira nak daniel mira... mira nak dia.. mira nak hug daniel mira... mira hnya nak dia dalam life mira.. bukan org lain ! mira cuma nak any guy rte now utk mira hold on.. thats all.. but mira hnya nak daniel dlm life mira.. Ya allah.. ini ke yg cuba kau bgthu aku ?? daniel bukan jodoh aku ?? kalau itu yg kau rancang utk ku... kalau itu yg terbaik utk ku, tak memudaratkan sesiapa then aku redha ya allah... tapi beri kan aku kekuatan utk go through all this ya allah... berikan laa aku kesenangan... amin ya allah !