happened on 15th MARCH

hey2.. hmm.. yesterday was a bad day for me.. i cried.. i had a fight with abang.. i just had it enough.. i cant do it anymore.. i do love him.. i mean as a brother.. i trust him.. but he dint... everything i did is wrong for him.. its just.. i don't know what else should i do.. i cant even tolerate anymore with him.. he blame me every single... after Daniel died.. not even once he make me smile with his words.. all he did was punished me.. i don't know where im wrong.. its just i cant anymore.. this is just too much for me ! i love him.. i really do love him so damn much.. more than akak maybe.. well tak tahu laa kan.. but dia tak appreciate it.. not once ! why is that ? i really don't know with who i wanted to share.. only Mel can understand me.. but Mel is now MIA.. Hakim ? he's too far.. he studied at Korea.. and how am i suppose to share all this with him ? i just cry as loud as i can last night.. and at last i fell asleep.. i off my phones.. im not in the mood to communicate with anyone.. and today i woke up,, im better but my heart ?? knowing that im not gonna have him in my life anymore.. :( hm.. i suppose meet emir today at KL CC and i did not turn up.. i know he's mad at me.. im sorry ! i really do.. wasn't my intention to do so.. i am really sorry emmir! ill make it up to you someday.. i owe you.. :( im just not in the mood to see anyone.. i know Ive shouldn't tell you.. but i just cant.. i don't know why.. im sorry ! and for you abang.. even you cant read my blog.. but i still love you no matter what.. i do !  Ive delete you from my Face book and ill delete you from Ym after this too... im sorry ! you blame me for all things that i dint do abang.. al-fatihah to my sayang !