i don't know why I'm so emotional tonight.. I'm just so damn stressed out! there's a lot of thing i have to think.. I'm burden with all this problem.. and no one understands me.. its just too heavy.. ! I'm lost control with myself... I'm so damn rude with khairul... till he asked me to "mengucap and istigfar".. that time i realize im so far already... and yeah... astaghfirullahalazim...i don't like ika contact with kakak.. im not jealous but i just don't like.. i dont know why but i don't like.. i a bad person kan? mira bukan tak suka share ke apa.. tapi mira tak suka akk nak planned bnda2 behind my back.. macam hari tuh.. kita gaduh and akk datang.. kenapa kena planned ngn ika semua ? kenapa tak just datang ? hah ? kenapa nak kena mintak tolong dia ?? kenapa akak tak nak datang and just pujuk mira.. mira tak suka dia interfere urusan kita..yes.. mira tahu dia baik... tapi hmm.. akak mula nak jaga hati dia,, and all,.. akk dah ada mal kan,.. akk nak ada ika jugak ? then if mira rapat ngan kakak lain akk tak suka jugak kan ? even dengan zak pon akk nak sentap kan ? sama laa macam mira.. mira macam tuh jugak.. akk BBM ngn mal hari2.. ada mira ckp apa2 tak? tak kan... ada mira msge ngn kakak lain tak ? tak kan .. kalau mira buat akk terasa jugak kan.. itu laa yg mira cuba nak ckp.. tapi .... :(
yes mira tahu akk sedih kan dgn attitude mira.. sorry lah !
